Tired and Disappointed at MyselfRant About Work

I am not sure now if I really wanted this - to be in this position at work. Yes, I am not taking in calls but I do more than that. This work is the type where even after my 9-hour shift, I still bring work home. I am already so tired and exhausted I want to quit. But quitting is too late. I am almost half-way the duration of the project that stopping is not an option.

 

The sad part is, no ones seems to appreciate my effort. I admit, last year was a lot better when it was handled by a real team leader (TL). But I am only an agent. How I wish I can make that an excuse. The success of the project depends on me...or at least half of it.

 

Earlier one of my colleague commented on the job I am doing. He said he could not feel the Christmas peak comparing it to last year's. The sad part is, two other people agreed. Although they may say that they were just joking, I was really hurt because I know they are right. I could not look at them as they talk about how lousy I do my job.

 

Now I feel so low and disappointed at myself for not meeting their expectations. I am bound by a lot of factors but I can not make that an excuse as well. They will not listen, they will not understand.

 

I am off again to Divisoria later after my shift for the souvenirs. I am so tired... so tired...