2010 - Wow! I can't believe this blog is already 4 years old! I would like to thank everyone has been so nice to me and my blog. I am really happy that there are people out there who can relate to my life.
January 24, 2010 - I met this guy online who inspired me to write/blog again. To Sal, thank you for the inspiration. I owe you one.
I am a frustrated artist who finds refuge in
bitterness and solitude. Angst is what I speak and love is what I hide. I
never want to be seen naked for in nakedness there is truth and truth I am
afraid of. Reality never seems to be fair, life in fact is iniquitous.
I like to put up a facade like a masked man in a party. I like to exude and
air of mystery and fear. For in fear I earn respect and respect I treasure.
I like to play God once in a while, controlling the people who surround me.
I love to twist emotions and bring out the insides.
I have found love but it left me suddenly for reasons until now I do not
understand. He pierced right through everything that is me and left a broken
arrow in my heart. But I let that happen because I loved him so sincerely.
If there was a time I really loved someone, it would be that time. He rocked
my world; sadly, he rocked me to my death.