14 January 2014
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I am a frustrated artist who finds refuge in bitterness and solitude. Angst is what I speak and love is what I hide. I never want to be seen naked for in nakedness there is truth and truth I am afraid of. Reality never seems to be fair, life in fact is iniquitous.
I like to put up a facade like a masked man in a party. I like to exude and air of mystery and fear. For in fear I earn respect and respect I treasure.
I like to play God once in a while, controlling the people who surround me. I love to twist emotions and bring out the insides.
I have found love but it left me suddenly for reasons until now I do not understand. He pierced right through everything that is me and left a broken arrow in my heart. But I let that happen because I loved him so sincerely. If there was a time I really loved someone, it would be that time. He rocked my world; sadly, he rocked me to my death...
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10 May 2010
A Virgin Voter
I am already 27 and I have never exercised my right to vote and honestly, and unfortunately perhaps, I can't think of a specific reason why.
I have never been a fan of public office or the government. I think people only go to politics for fame, power and money. Really helping perhaps comes after everything else.
I just hope the next set of officers set true examples of leadership and the sincerity to help without being corrupt. That way, people like me will learn to appreciate a clean government free from corruption and broken promises.
03 February 2010
The Photographer and the Model at 5505
Day 2
The Odiongan public market was our next stop. Yanie bought small shrimps which she made into okoys that evening and two tumpok ng sihi which my sister-in-law cooked with coconut milk for lunch. Yanie also got herself some kind of green sea algae, which smells really weird which she made into a salad added with sliced tomatoes, vinegar, onions, etc.
That night, we picked Buen from his house and headed to Barangay Libertad’s fiesta. The coronation was boring so we enjoyed ourselves in the perya where I lost six pesos. We didn’t stay long and went straight home.
The Photographer and the Model at 5505
Day 1 (continuation)
After lunch we headed back to the beach to watch the sunset. We arrived early so we went ahead and took more pictures until the screen of the camera was saying, “Low Battery.” Good thing it didn’t fully gave up on us come sunset.
Here are some pictures of our misadventures.
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01 February 2010
The Photographer and the Model at 5505
Day 1
She left Batangas port at around 6pm and arrived here around 3am. Usually the trip only lasts around 8hrs and that the Roro (Roll on, Roll off) leaves the port at 5pm. I didn't know what caused the delay.
I arrived the Odiongan port around 1:30am, left my bike outside the gate and asked the guard if he can let me in explaining that my friend had a lot of baggage with her and would need help. I lied of course. She only had two bags with her. The port was almost empty except for the jeepneys parked on the left side and some vendor offering boiled eggs and peanuts. In my hurry, I left the house without my undies on and was only wearing a white board shorts. It was really cold.
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30 January 2010
Things I Have Learned So Far
5. Get a job you’re happy with. Don’t waste your youth staying in something you don’t like.
6. If you feel he is gay, most probably he is. Trust your instincts.
28 January 2010
The Beautiful and the Disaster Part II
While I was drinking me second beer, which turned out to be the last for the night, the handler of candidate #5 approached me:
Mark: "To, marunong ka magDrive?"
Me: "Opo."
Mark: "May motor ka?"
Me: "Opo."
Mark: "Ok lang ba ihatid mo siya (points at contestant #5) sa bahay nila?"
Me: "Ok lang. TagaSaan ba siya?"
Mark: "Sa Odiongan, sa bayan malapit sa RSU (Romblon State University)."
Me: "Ang layo naman. Sino kasama mo?"
Mark: "Ikaw lang. Sino ba pwede mong kasama?"
Me: "Baka si Buen o si Kit pero mukhang nag-eenjoy na sila eh." (More dance na yung dalawa sa gitna ng dancefloor.)
Mark: "Sige ako na lang."
I agreed and asked them to wait outside the plaza while I get the bike parked across the street. I told Buen I'd come back for him as soon as possible.
We hit the road and everything was smooth for a few minutes. Most of the road were cemented and we were running at around 60 tops. Then the handler asked me, "Ikaw ba panganay ni Mam Dhors?" I said yes and our conversation went from there. He said he is from Batiano and is teaching college in RSU. Batiano is the birth place of my mom and is about 3 kilometers away from town where we live. We were having a nice talk until...
The cement road ended and unfortunately, I did not notice it. I was not able to slow down as we hit the dirt road. We swayed for a bit but I was able to control the vehicle after a while until I noticed something was wrong. "Flat ata," I said as I stopped in a dark corner of the road where there were no street lights and the only visible lights were coming from the moon and the vehicle.
Confirmed. We had a flat tire, a really flat tire at that. I tried to test drive it alone but it was really hard to maneuver. Mark decided to text his friend to pick us up. I texted Buen I couldn't go back because of what happened and that he'd have to go home with Kit instead. No reply. I took it as "ok."
After around 20 minutes of waiting, he arrived, our savior. He took the contestant and the Mark with him while I drive the vehicle with the flat tire this time I was going at a speed of 20. They were behind me as was driving at the same speed. Hope came over me when Mark mentioned a vulcanizing shop at the next barangay, Gabawan.
We drove for what I thought were endless minutes until we reached Gabawan. Luck was obviously not our side and the shop was closed.
Next stop was Barangay Dapawan which was about four barangays away. There was a lot of things going on on my mind.
Shit! Magagalit si Papa. Lalo na si Mama kasi di nya ako pinayagan originally eh nung nagpaalam ako. Si Papa lang talaga yung umOkey. Baka di rin ako payagan bumalik mamayang gabi para sa Ms. Gay dahil dito. Di ko ba sasabihin ang nangyari? Paano mamaya pag gising nila at nalaman na flat yung gulong? PaVulcanaize ko kaya at huwag sabihin sa kanila para parang walang nangyari? Paano kung wala nang open? Gisingin ko na lang kaya si Papa at siya na magpaVulcanize?
I was almost already murmuring to myself when the other vehicle drove past me and I heard the driver say, "Sundan mo kami." We were already in Dapawan. We took a left turn and then another right until we reached the VULCANIZING SHOP. It was heaven. I never thought I'd look at a vulcanizing shop in such admiration. The sign said CLOSED.
The driver of the other vehicle shouted but in a controlled manner, "Bes, Bes." There was light. An old man, obviously interrupted from his deep slumber came out of the bamboo-slit gate.
He agreed to help us. I told the driver bring contestant #5 home. Mark agreed to stay with me. The vulcanizer guy started his magic. He first removed the rear tire of the bike, removed the interior and determined how many holes there was. He said there were many and are the result of running on a flat tire. My bad! Later he'd tell me there were actually only two holes, one caused by a nail which penetrated the hard rubber and the other caused by running on a flat tire. I let out a sigh of relief.
I texted Papa immediately. I told him the truth. He asked me if I needed help, I said I was okay. A few minutes later, Papa was there on a bike. He left after being assured that everything was fine. I think it helped that he knew Mark. The driver came back with two burgers and two bottles of water then left. Mark and I continued on with our conversation until the vulcanizer guy was finished.
The Beautiful and the Disaster Part I
Here's how the invitation went - as exactly how I got it:
Buen: "Tian,my motor ka?tara punta tau ng panique...txtbCk po
Me: "Nu meon?"
Buen: "Coronation,punta tau txt me f okay d2 lang aq kanto dapawan sa my simenteryo,la ne me xtra load...tnx"
Me: "Sige ligo lang ako. Daanan kita jan."
Buen: "Ok xtian take your time dito lang ako...cgeh po w8 kita..."
So I hurriedly prepared for the night out. I picked him just outside the cemetery gate and we headed to a gasoline station where they sell gasoline in one liter Coke bottles. We got a liter of gasoline.
We arrived at Barangay Panique around ten in the evening. Inside the elementary school campus was being held the Ms. Panique 2010. It was already starting. The place was crowded so we decided to stay outside and walk for a bit. Just a note: According to Buen, it was an open pageant which means anybody from any barangay or town could join which was the case. Made me wonder why it was not titled Ms. Open Pageant 2010 instead. Just a thought. Hihihi...
Buen is known by everyone. That's how gays are here. They can run in public office and they would be sure winners, popularity-wise that is. Especially Buen. He seem to know everybody. We talked for a bit and then we saw a "peryahan" across the street. We went there and played. I lost twenty pesos in the "color game." There are three cube with each side colored. Then they are rolled on to a slanted plank. You place bets on which color you think will come up. You're lucky if all the dices come up with same color you bet on, you get triple the amount of your bet. Buen on the other hand tried his shooting skills. He was given a gun full with pellets for ten pesos. Everyone there, including the bystanders were cheeringfor him. He able to shoot 3 small plastic soldiers and as a prize was given one piece of Sky Flake biscuit which he later gave to a small kid behind him. Lol.
After the perya stint, we headed to a small sari-sari store (ain't sari-sari stores supposed to be smoall? Lol) and bought beers. I got SanMig Light while he did Red Horse while doing some poses for my almost-battery-empty camera.
Kit and Buen - Tinalo pa yung mga contestants sa poses!
26 January 2010
Help me Win an iPod Nano!
What I didn't know, and I think Sal intentionally did not tell me, is that for you to get the iPod, you'd have to refer people to the site. There are in total 20 iPods for grabs and Sal is already one of the 20 people so far. Competition ends on January 31, 2010 at 2:00am. The top 20 people who has the most referrals win. So far I ain't in the list yet so I am begging you people, help me win that freakin' prize. Hahaha... Click this link to register or click this: http://vk.com/reg67198402.
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Habol Lang....
Kadarating lang ni Papa (biological) from work. He and mom are elementary teachers. Galing ata si Papa sa ibat-ibang schools doing some rounds and while at it took pictures of the schools. He asked me to edit them or as he put it, "pagandahin ko raw." I told him I can't do anything with the pictures since they're relatively already good.
So I was browsing the album and I found this really funny photo of a bulletin board from some school he visited earlier. I won't mention the name of the school anymore because the last time I wrote something negative about a college in Quezon City, I received a lot of hate comments (I deleted the post already).
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