Why Do You Have to Break Me?A Sad Story in P2

What would you do if you saw your bestfriend kissing the guy you like?

Aray!
Ouch!
Sh*t!

Name it. It boils down to... IT HURTS! But how do you react to your friend who so unknowingly is breaking your heart into these tiny pieces?

It was Sunday. We were in P2 enjoying the last night of my leave. We were enjoying the sights of half-naked guys dancing up the stage. Then Bryan (not his real name) passed by our spot and my bestfriend immediately recognized him. Of course, he knew about my feelings for Bryan. But sadly, I also knew how Bryan felt for him. I thought I could easily get over - them texting each other, dancing, fooling around - but I was wrong. My best bud disappeared. I tried to wander my eyes around but he was not there. Then in a crowd of half-naked men upstage, he was there, kissing a seemingly familiar guy. He was kissing Bryan (or maybe it was the other way around). I pretended not see them, pulled my cap down so noone could see the tears that I tried so hard to hide. I let out a small sigh, and then a smile but the pain was just too much to bear. I finally retrieved to the comfort room.

When I got back, my best bud was there acting like nothing happened. Probably he thought I didn't see them. I wore my happy mask also pretending I didn't see them. The rest of the night/day went fine. We went home drunk as usual and I dropped him off near his house. As soon as I put my cellphone down the study table, there were 3 messages from him. The first one saying he's home; the second he was asking why I was not texting back; the third saying sorry.

I did not reply. The hurt was too much. It still is. Until now I have not replied any of those messages.

But I know it was not his fault...